A Gentleman's Beard

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andherewegolifeswaitingtobegin: I’m Owen and I’m the most handsome boy ever. #boyfriend #handsome #love Day “my girlfriend is basically the reason why i have this tumbly and does all the math for me” 105. ( aka Week: 15.2 ) I haven’t done anything about this tumblr in so long. It came from 29th until basically the 3rd. It wasn’t supposed to be here, but it was. I’m so sick of doctors offices and pharmacies not doing what they should be. Apparently my whole file got erased from Mercedes’ office. Still getting referred to as my birth name by them. Ordering needles online - 100 for 38$ - signiiiiificantly better than 4 for 13$. I dont even know. Feeling large.  

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andherewegolifeswaitingtobeginLolz sleepy time. #birthday #boyfriend #sleepy DAY “Itwasmybirthdayyesterdayandisleepifiwantto” 88. I love my girlfriend and my best friend for throwing me the cutest little birthday party there ever was. It didnt really feel like my birthday until then. I had my 14th shot today. S is still interviewing me for the school newspaper, im pretty sure im dropping the honors part of my college career and i cant be happier. dinner with my bff tonight in celebration of our birthdays. I really want to go to the gym. and do work.   

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andherewegolifeswaitingtobegin: #attractive #boyfriend #itsaboy (Taken with Instagram) ANYWAY. DAY “mysisterhadababyshowertodayandigotcalledbymybirthnameawkwardlythewholetimeee” 84. alright, well not entirely. but when nobody knows who/what to call you its just as bad. its been a while, but whatev. a few more sporadic hairs under my chin. got my hair did the other day for the fiesta. I may have lost track of the shots. My birthdays on thursday. I need to get the name change paperwork in asap. its….getting ridic.

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Day “I wear my sunglasses in sunrooms” 76. I really hope that this is the last day of the period machine…I’m really over it. Organizing the shit out of how behind I am…it’s great. Also hope work isn’t busy so I can get a lot of it done. So much hookah last night<3 I love my girlfriend. Had deep talks with C last night, it felt good to get a lot of things out there like that. 

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Day “yeah, basically.” 74. Super tired. Generally tired and completely angsty. I don’t know if my dose has finally dwindled and it’s making me grumpy or what. M continually used the wrong pronouns all night. Picked up the needles for tomorrow and ended up with candy. Because I’m a miserable procrastinator, who’s broke and horribly out of shape. I really wonder sometimes why K puts up with how stupid my life is. The period continues. 

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Day “the way she half-sings while trying to write a paper” 73. October third. I woke up so grumpy this morning. I would’ve stayed face down in my pillow for the majority of the day if it wasn’t for her pushing me out of bed. Still bleeding day three. My ears are significantly better, putting in the plugs soon. She said she’d take me on a date tonight, to get saladbar. The pimples are still winning. I was supposed to be writing my paper this entire time, clearly that didn’t work out so well. Page 1.5/5. Cool. 

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Day “Don’t sneer at educated people Mr. Wormwood.” 72. Day two of the most mysterious period I’ve ever had. Cramps to death last night, on top of dumbass me putting in 00’s. still in pain. have a douchey bandaid on my head from the pimples that keep re-returning. so much homework. One of the cast-mates was confused that someone was referring to me as my birth name. Either she’s really oblivious or I’m passing. She told me that she wanted to be closer to me. 

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Day “Black Spot for days” 70. Absolutely freezing. finally getting ahead on my laundry/cleaned my room etc. On a personal note, my bum is pimply. Still eating, feeling badly about it, blahblahblah. My good binder is driving me nuts and keeps rolling up. Plans to get attractive later. Hollaholla.

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Day “I knew you’d erase what I put, but you’re still attractive” 69. and you wonder why my girlfriend is in the picture ;) she owns a new ipone, so there will be many more instagram pix to follow, i just eat alot. and have “a lazy eye in pictures, but its still cute.” There was gay guy at work that asked me if owen was my last name, it got awkward real fast when i said no…and then he said he liked my earrings, and by earrings i mean plugs, but it was a salvaged conversation. also becoming an obscene caffeine addict. its not to monster level yet, but 4 cups of coffee…plus the technically two i had this morning….not good. my brain feels like its vibrating.

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Day “dad.dad.dad.dad.dad.dad.dad” 68. The truth is it really sucks not being able to hear that from my biological future children. Shot #10 today, done by my wonderful girlfriend. Heavy, tired and sore. Hookah with my bestfriend. Relaxing forevah. D called and said my levels are as if I’m on the highest dose. Apparently they won’t increase my dose anymore? Will hear from the office in a week or so when M gets back. 

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Day “so wait, I’m pretty?” 67. The turtles going up for adoption. Had a wonderful dinner with M, made either the fourth or fifth video for c.u.n.t. She told me my facial expressions looked different, I don’t know. Dropped off the bloodwork paperwork and D called me back a few hours ago to tell me something along the lines of they’re not going to increase my dose for good reasons…I’ll call her tomorrow. Throat kind of sore. I feel like I’m stanky all the time. &everybody loves pimples. 

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Day “ILOVEMYSQUINTYEYE” 65. and i love not sleepiiiiing. and not doing any workkkk. and eating like a beastttt. and not getting a call back from mercedessss. and having weird sympathy crampssss. weeeeooooo. and pimplessss. and shaving with skintimate shaving cream in the girls bathroom while they got readyyyy.  

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Day “thankgoditsmonday” 64. The whole, do work on the weekend thing is…just exhausting. Shot numero nine on friday. I’ve been trying to call Mercedes but she’s on vacation for two weeks and her nurses have no idea what to increase my doses to…so still at .25 not like I’m mad, I’m sincerely thankful that I’m on T and it’s clearly working….but still. Weird cramping, some kind of weird something happened for two days…but the period machine I do believe is running out of fuel :) BFF told me that my voice is deeper - sometimes. I can handle that. I’m eating again, and it’s far too much. Gymday tomorrow, today is homework/catchup day.
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Day “talk about the hair on your chin and how everyone loves it” 59, technically. Thanks to kimberly for putting my comparison up there, I really needed it. I’m a hot mess. Still haven’t heard from Mercedes….so….calling them up tomorrow. Foodfest’12  with K&A because, letsbehonest. It’s so needed. The one one the left is day one…and the one on the right is tonight’s. Please tell me it’s at least a little different. oh and that awkward moment when your girlfriend measures your chest. 

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Day “hey 530am, suckmydick.” 57. Went out to Amherst at seventhirty for my appointment with Mercedez. She was having a rough morning but I apparently lost a pound or two since last week. She also asked how things were going blahblahblah. Notable updates: realized I had my period for three weeks out of the past eight. M said that the next one will more than likely be my last :) I’m not getting my hopes on that…but anyway…discussed bi-weekly as opposed to weekly, I still feel like I’m getting more done every Friday. There was also a discussion about increasing my dose to .3/.35 when she got my blood test results back (way to go smg for not sending them) but she said she’d call me later today with the official okay. Well it’s later, and she still hasn’t called and is going on a two week vacation tomorrow. Sweet. The secretary kept using my birth name even though they’re usually pretty good with using Owen. Idunno. Six months until my next appointment there. Going out there screwed up my gym-journey, but I worked tonight. So fresh, so clean.